Salam Ramadhan

'Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa' 

pada semua...ini merupakan tahun kedua aku berpuasa alone bersama anak2...tahun pertama masa tahun 2010...tapi waktu tu still ada 'dia'..sekarang totally takde..what do i feel...?

ehmm...taklah sedih sangat..biasa je..aku dah boleh menerima kenyataan...sometimes teringat tu..normal lah kan...as long..anak2 ok..aku pun ok...

first day puasa..tapi aku tak puasa pun..first day lak tu ari ni..huhuhu...jenuh lah nak ganti..yang lama2 pun tak ganti lagi..ehmm..ari ni gi bazaar ramadhan..sibuk je kan..?hehehe...biasalah kat bazaar..takde yang best pun..masak sendiri gak sedap..:)..

 misi aku bulan puasa ni...nak turun kan berat badan yang dah naik melampo2 ni..baju sume dah tak muat...cutting badan pun dah macam kotak..takde cutting langsung..uish tak leh cmni calla...yup nak turun berat badan n kembalikan bentuk badan..hehehe..hopefully berjaya..chaiyok!!!yakin boleh...ada lagi 28 ari to go..mmg berpuasa sungguh ni...

Think before you speak...

I found this phrase i think..i like this...

"Before you judge my life, my past or my character... Walk in my shoes, walk the path I have traveled, live my sorrow, my doubts, my fear, my pain and my laughter.. Remember, everyone has a story. When you've lived my life then you can judge me."

yup...ehmm..mb.. people can talk everything about me..without knowing what inside my heart..why it's happened..?  without trying to put their-self  in my shoe..yea..they don't know..if i have a choice i don't want to live with 'this'...people said...everyone have choice..but have they think about that choice..?sometimes some people have so many choices..and some other people only have a choice..For those who have so many choices..once we choose and suddenly we feel dats not correct and we want to revert all again..it will cause something...either something related to us or others..and of coz it will give us pain...hurting..frustrating..disappointing..and so many feeling..the bad feeling..and they said..'it's okay..it will heal by times'..to talk is easy..but to going through that things...is not easy..
Now..I'm going through a difficult time in my life..is not easy to be ME....sometimes...i don't want them to agree with me..i just want them to understand why it's happened..without blaming me and sometimes i just want to talk..to share..to show my feeling..and no need to advise or blame me again..is it possible?...yea..i know they have their own opinion...experience..they have their own eyes..own feeling..but..please think before voice out..mb..it will hurt others feeling..

i really appreciate all the concern..the kindness....ehmm..try to be me..try to feel what i feel..and ..give me advise..opinion..

like i always said to myself...'follow the flow...'..actually...i try to change everything...coz...i don't want to live with this...it's hurt me..more  and more..and i know it...things is not easy....it's not easy actually....fuhhhh....

Kosong

rasa kosong sangt..entahlah...nape lah pagi2 ni mood tak best...betul2 rasa alone...kosong....kosong...kosong..

I miss u 'h'...

I don't know why..i miss someone..

someone who has entered in my life..

i hope he will fine...:(

~Happy New Year 2012!~

2012...

rasanya belum terlambat kut nak wish selamat tahun baru..cepatnya masa..dah tahun 2012 dah..tahun ni umur ku menginjak 32 tahun..anak ku yang sulung menginjak ke 4 tahun and yang bongsu menginjak ke 3 tahun insyallah!..perkahwinan ku pula menginjak ke 5 tahun..ehmm..orang kata lps 5 tahun perkahwinan tu akan ok..entahlah..banyk betul bnda yg jadi dlm tempoh ni..but still lagi bersama..even pernah goyah....aku mengharapkan semoga semuanya yang baik2 je berlaku dalam hidup ku lepas ni..

tahun baru ari tu..,aku celebrate ngan anak2 gi tengok bunga api..ini merupakan tahun pertama kami tengok bunga api satu family...dulu masa tahun 2008 kalau tak silap aku..masa merdeka..masa tu 'bintang' ku kecil lagi..sangat takut ngan bunyi berdentum2 tu..kali ni..dia sangat happy..aku tgk kat area umah je..happy coz salah satu bnda yang aku nak buat dah terlaksana..

permulaan tahun baru tak berapa baik (pada pendapat ku)..but mb baik sebenarnya..mb ada bnda yg tersembunyi yang tak ku ketahui..ni berikutan rentetan peristiwa yg jadi pada tahun 2011..30/12/11..ehmm..kenangan yang tak mungkin ku lupa..moga2..semuanya benjalan lancar..dan aku berharap semoga tahun ni aku lebih bahagia...

amin..